CRAZY

What a crazy life is this???!!!! Demands that are so high it's a wonder how we ever accomplish them!! It just amazes me how we have strength to face the day! But then I'm reminded of the song that we sing by Hillsong United....."And it's in your presence we find strength to face the day and all our sins are washed away...Hosanna, Hosanna you are the God who saves up worthy of ALL our praises!" I know at times I lack strength or I say somethings that I shouldn't and something I really struggle with is just trusting God to be my strength and not relaying on my own! This life is hard I know, it has so many ups and downs, but more times than not we have more downs than ups. I was reading "In A Pit With A Lion On A Snowy Day" by Mark Batterson and in it he wrote "if we always have 'good days' then how would we ever know when are the GREAT days?" We always pray for those good days but if we never had a bad day then when could we point out where God really used up or when we really heard from Him? We couldn't! I guess we just have to see some light on those bad days and know that God is strengthening us through those experiences or situations! God never said life was going to be easy, take Jesus for example. His own friends betrayed Him. The same people that called Hosanna wanted him dead 5 days later!! But He did tell us that if you trust in Him, He will strengthen you and set you free. Freely He gave as we demanded and He is still giving....why? Because He loves us more than anyone ever could! Because in Him we find our strength and out refugee and our strong tower firm through any storm that Satan blows our way! I hope you had a blessed Easter and continue to seek Him even in the hardest of days! God bless!

i dont know

Its been really crazy around here lately!!! Everything just seemed to unorganized and stressful that I was being to feel like I was going crazy!!! But right now it seems that everything has pretty much slowed down and I can really concentrate for the first time in a while!!! Sometimes we run around like a chicken with our head cut off and we don't really put time aside to spend with God and I know everyone is guilty of it one time or another!!! But why??? My explanation is that Satan wants us to feel overwhelmed and stressed out so we don't do what God says or we don't hear from Him......on Friday I was running late to get home on the time that I promised my parents, when I saw her!! She had run off the road and was heading straight for a telephone poll, when I heard Him tell me "if you want help, you first have to help" the story behind that is this....since buying my first car it has failed me and broken down not once but 2-3 times!!! And both times it has been on streets where there was a medium size traffic and not one person stopped and asked me if I needed help!!!! So I pull off the road and get out of my car and see if this girl was okay!!! Thankfully she had stop just 2 inches shy of the telephone poll and was crying so bad I didn't know what to do!!! We call the police and the tow truck and everything is okay but as I'm driving home I realize that the next time that my car breaks down I can count on God to send me a helper!!! Besides my DAD :D

PANAMA

WOW so on Tuesday was our first official drama practice!! I was so excited and we ended up learning only one drama.....not to blame anyone but we just had a lot to talk about with all the newbs and what not!!!! But this week has been a really crazy. Today was really nice!!! We had a 1/2 day and I was supposed to leave for interning at like 10:30ish but my bus from ACE to school ended up not coming until 11!!!! Sometimes you just have to think positive but the sad part is I'm not seeing anything positive about that though!! :D everything just seems to be coming together for this summer and then college though!!! I got a call last Sunday during dinner and here it was the coach of the girls basketball team....and he wants to meet with me when we get out there......which is next month after all!!! It's like my whole summer is already planned out with everything that is going on!!! In a way it's kind of nice because then you know exactly what you are going to be doing and when you are going to be doing it!!! for now I'm waiting to go to lunch with the other interns and discuss JJAM for this week........then work and then home to sleep. Saturday morning I have to give molly a bath and then wash her blanket then to I M Experience and then York Rescue Missions with my mom and then home!!! Sunday I have to go to first service then to work and then home!!!! WOW who would have ever thought it would be this crazy........

That is the question....

Well I was talking to someone last night about my blog and they said that they weren't to sure about whether or not to blog. They told me that somethings are really private and that they are between them and God....and I totally agree. There are just somethings that I just don't think you should blog about.......but some good things to start off with would be something that happened this week that was a real God eye opener. Or maybe how your favorite team just got knocked out of March Madness.....or some other ideas. I don't know maybe I'm taking this out of proportion but I just want to be safe and not bash anyone or hurt anyones feelings that is reading this....for instance family. Yeah I can talk about them but I want to talk about them in the way that I see them and how I love them without getting to personal!!! I don't know but maybe its something to really pray about!!! But random thought: Why does the Easter bunny give eggs if he is a bunny??? Does he steal them from the chicken or what????? very challenging :D

CRAZYNESS

WOW!!! so this week is extremely crazy right now!!! i have 3 unwanted goldfish at my house that i have to wait until it is a little warmer in order to bring them to the church where their new home is going to live!!! in remembrance of P.tone and Jamie their names are Darla, Nemo, and Dora only because the one is orange like Nemo but the bad thing is that Dora isn't blue!!! but yeah Molly, who is my dog, is so fascinated by them.....she decided that she was going to watch them until they were put up higher away from her!!! then again its always hard to keep two little brothers away from them when you are trying to do the dishes!!! i just can't wait for the summer time or at least the spring a ling a ling time!!! :D but its amazing how God is working right now!!! at times everything just seems so complicated and hard but then when you feel the most desperate its when you see things the clearest like you have been walking throw the fog and you don't know if you are going in the right direction but then when it seems that things have cleared you see that it wasn't you directing your steps but God knowing that you were SO lost!!! its really amazing!! i am just so thankful that when i am having those moments God is right there letting me know that he is the one careering me through!!! WOW!!!!

Snowy Days

i just love snowy days when they aren't filled with screaming boys and crazy dogs on the loose in our development!!! it started off great when you wake up and find out that you have no school today and its always comforting when you can still crawl back into your bed and it is still nice and cozy warm!! i just celebrate another year of life last sunday and my first missions dinner of the season!! but i was really thinking these past few days how God has truely blessed me!! my moms daughter died a couple years ago in November and at first it was really hard to deal with only because she was only 9 years old...but i just was really thinking about her and how open she was and trusting that God was going to heal her and dont we all?! we want to preach about being trusting but really we arent!!! i dont know i just cant wait to see her in heaven and thank her for being a blessing in my life and encouraging me even in the hard times!!